Wednesday, April 04, 2007

isn't dead bettter


Its 4 minutes to 1 somehow i just can't sleep i think I'm thinking too much too much that's why I've been having nightmares lately.
I just need a break in everything I'm doing.Even in studies, everything is going too quick, i can't catch up.Tomorrow there will be an English Mock Exam, A subject that i suck at.
Look even now there are so much grammar errors.Talking about English I've yet to summit my file and the journal and the compo with is included in CA.

Lets talk about school since i just don't wish to fall asleep really i really don't wish to sleep,and when i sleep i just don't feel like waking up,then when i wake up i would cry cause i want an hour more to sleep.How is wish i got the HFMD then i have MC for 10days i won't mind suffering with the many many ulcer and the red dots at my hands and legs.I rather suffer then going to school seeing people that i don't wish to see and sit at my sit looking at the whiteboard and the whiteboard looking at me.Or hearing people calling my name from outside the classroom show me hand signs and me showing back and then make me angry.Can i quit school? i just have no more mood to study,well maybe i have but just a little mood cause the rest has gone to don't know where.
Let see tomorrow's timetable there will be 2 hours of POA.how boring.There will be maths and Biology as well as an hour and a half of EL mock exam.

If there is no EXAM tomorrow i won't mind going to school but there will be an English paper alar ! KNNCB la !
I lose all my appetite to eat i manage to get one spoonful of rice and the rest of the rice is thrown away.thanks to THAT GUY for ruining my mood for the whole day.!
I hate you, i don't need your concern at all cause no matter what you do i hate you !

let it all be history cause I'll never forgive you, you made me hate you this way
I'll never forget what you have done to me
Let me go free let me be what i want to be.
I'll prove to you WRONG.

call me crazy and what so ever
I know what I'm doing at the most if i took a wrong path
i learn from it and never to do it again.
Who are you force me to do things i don't like.
Let me tell you i had enough of you.
Is 1 year and 6 months not enough for you ?
I had enough,time to move on.
Your footprint are no longer in my heart and in my doesn't have a single thing about you.
I've once taken your heart and I've given it back to you.
Go ahead and find your dream girl, go forward for your dreams.
No one is going to stop you from what you wish to do.


let me be cause I've been thinking about suicide.
If i think i really have no choice but to end my life.
I'll do so.
If i have to do it in front of you
I'll do so.
You people don't ever ever make me lose my mind !
I bet you people just can't wait me to disappear from your life.

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